Not too long ago, I had to deal with a personal event in one of my trip. An event I was somewhat excited about, however it ended badly and I felt like I was drowning in emotion.. you know the feeling where you try to balance everything and just drop the birthday cake? That feeling.
I decided to not that feeling take over me and go venture my own. I was in a city I probably will never be, not one I was particularly interested in to visit or had ever looked into.
I got in the car and drove to a cafe that looked nice from the reviews.
I get small anxiety attacks when I have to drive to somewhere unfamiliar, the little brief moment between walking through the door in a restaurant and waiting for a hostess, trying to open a door, talking to someone on the phone.. these little things are something I think constantly until they actually happen.
So driving to a “cool cafe” in an unknown city and parking few blocks down the road was a hell of an achievement for that day, especially when I wanted to stay under the sheets whole day.
I went to 3 different cafes, tried food that looked good, shared a table with strangers and talked about organic potatoes, walked inside a boutique and bought myself some gifts, walked around pretty downtown neighborhood and talked to my bestfriend.
Exactly at that point I realized, I am very happy with my life. I am content. I have things I am constantly greatful for. I don’t have anything to complain about.
The only thing I miss the most is my bestfriends. We laugh at the silliest things, we challenge each other constantly, they are the only people who are allowed to say “you look terrible in that”, who gets the need to take pictures, who understands the love for one stray vine on a red brick wall.
I dont find the need to call up a special someone to talk about how my day went. But the cat I saw in the neighborhood, i need to share that with mony, some kachchi meme l need to share with urmi, old book references has to be shared with lithy and toma needs to know everything.
I really miss my friends ❤️